Friday, 3 January 2014

Happy New Year!! Can't believe that its 2014.

First off, I would like to wish whoever that is reading this, a happy new year.  2013 has been a very tough year for me.  In Sept, I lost my father and while we were not close, he was my father.  I do miss him.  Sometimes I would do something that he had taught me or something he had lectured me endlessly about, I would hear his voice telling me over and over again. Reminding me what he had taught me.  While I am sad with my father's passing, I do think that he is in a better place.  And life goes on.

I finally got a job I really like.  I enjoy going to work and while it time consuming and sometimes is rather irritating, I do find it interesting.  Being a store manager of a large clothing store, was a little daunting at first.  I had to lead a group of people to do best. Sometimes, I feel like I am headmistress and all my staff are students.  Some a good and hardworking, and some lazy and trouble makers from the get go.

After 3 months working there, I had to terminate about half of the staff in the store leaving me with barely enough staff to run the store.  Even now, I have a tough time getting enough staffs to work.  Each day I get new challenges to different problems and I have had not encountered before.  While it does keep the job interesting, it also make me really weary with the job.  Ok, enough whining about the job.

In 2013, I have also lost friends.  No....they didn't die.  I lost their friendship.  My friend, H, whom I had known for more than 10 years did something that totally pissed me off.  While she knew I was angry, she didn't try to make it right.  Instead she made fun of me.  That pissed me off even more.  I stopped talking to her for quite some time.  Although we are in talking terms now, the friendship had changed.  We don't talk as often, and we have stopped sharing our thoughts and feeling.   Either way, the friendship we had is gone.  I don't think it will ever come back.

Another friendship was my friend L.  She was my brother's ex girlfriend,  While we were very different, I had always considered her as a good friend.  Soon after she got married and had a child.  After that she just stopped calling me.  Even when my dad passed away, she didn't call, nothing.  It was all of a sudden I don't exist.  Her world just revolves around her family and husband.  OK, you might think I did something wrong to make her angry at me.  But I didn't.  Our last conversation we had was trying to decide where to go for coffee. In the end we canceled coz she was busy.  I don't understand what happened but I really don't care anymore.  She is in the past and I will leave it there, in the past.

However the wonderful thing in 2014 is that I found two wonderful friends,  LN and J.  I had known LN since my university days but we never got close.  But then we started hanging out and before I knew it, we were friends.  J is LN's friend whom I had come to know and love.  They are wonderful girls and I enjoy hanging out with them.  So I have 2 new friends, which in my age, its rather tough to make new friends. Especially with my work and family obligations, who has time to go out and meet new people.

One of my new year resolution is to write in this blog whenever I have the time.  I had neglected this blog long enough and I will try to at least write something once a week. It was LY's idea to write and record my life as I live it.  I think its a good idea.  While I don't go or do anything exciting, I can at least leave my thoughts and feeling out there in the internet universe.  Nobody has to know but me....